More or less, I’m going to get back to my b/w settings without the choice to do anything about it.
At least for a while, even if I really don’t know why.
Oh yes, your little bastard, you know, you just don’t want to admit it – that you have a deep-rooted monochrome crush and feel that you have betrayed an old friend.
I’m born and raised in monochrome. It’s probably some kind of identity crisis.
In the beginning, I thought that color photography only was something I would do sporadically. Then I became to really like it and all of a sudden colors was dominating my photography.
I left my b/w settings and started to shoot everything in color. I also started to see and think differently. Monochrome went my second opinion.
So what’s the problem! So I like colors and if, Colours are easily made into nice monochromes in the post process. Well, that’s a part of the problem.
This is simply a weird feeling I have. And more about how I do than what I do, and what I think is better for my confused little mind.
I am suffering from very annoying alternative possibility disorders. That’s the problem. More alternatives – more problems. I don’t need more alternatives than necessary to deal with. I want less (is more. Yeah!).
When needed, it can be a very useful condition, but mostly it’s only disturbing (the good thing is – creative infinity, nothing can ever go wrong, only different).
Remember that “even if I really don’t know why” in the beginning of this text? I don’t, apparently. But I have noticed that now. I just didn’t know what I didn’t know, yet. And still not really sure… shit!
So you see, this alternative thinking even bleeds through my writings. So many, too many ways to say something. This puzzle inside my mind often makes me feel like an exploding star. And then I begin to feel a little hungry…
So I will go back to basic and use my camera as it was a roll of film in it. Either b/w or color, not two in one.
And my precious little Fuji X100T makes great monochromes, straight from the camera (those here are not made that way, and some are mobile shots). And my monochrome mindset works so much more effective both when shooting and during the post-processing of the “negatives”.
Nothing wrong with colors, not at all. But when it comes to shooting in color on a more regular basis, I need to figure out what the hell I want to achieve more effectively. The confusion of exciting alternatives that lives inside the world of colors, or the sudden change of mood for b/w, or maybe not, or maybe… makes me bipolar.
I love it, and I just hate it at the same time.
If you don’t choose, everything will remain possible.
Maybe this is my path – to never really figure out what I want, meant to be a forever restless part of my mind.
I will keep on doing color photography anyway, however, whenever I feel for it. But not on a regular basis. And not as my standard setting.
Shooting with my iPhone will be an exception and stay my two in one whenever-wherever-however-camera.
But right now I need a relaxing monochrome spa. Focusing on the purity of shapes and contrasts without the interference of colors disturbing my little disordered head. So I will focus a lot on black and whites and the shades of grey in-between.
Less is more. And limitation is a creativity-engine making you more focused and inventive, and less disturbed by possible maybes. I need to clean up what I want.
We’ll see about that. I never trust myself. I often change quicker than I think.
Take Care, Peace and Love / Smike;)